I am still wearing the ring!
Ok…so I admit that I can’t get my eyes off gorgeous men and my flirt mode sometimes do power on automatically without my consent. But as long as I am not sleeping around I suppose that’s ok… Right?
Everything’s ‘under control’, just having a tiny bit of momentarily distraction. I HOPE!
Silly me.
I am feeling a little bit sentimental right now. About fab, about me and about us. It would be our 7th month come this 13th of June. 7 months!! Whoa…that’s my Guinness book of record considering the fact that I’ve never been able to keep a man for more than 4 months.
Time is really one’s best bet to know a person. When I met him, my flirt mode went out of control. He was hot and I was so ready for a fling. But what I didn’t keep track was the good things that soon followed through. For a change, I had so much fun I didn’t feed my subconscious mind with the ‘pattern’ I feared most when it comes to relationship. I just had fun, lotsa it. Without fear, without all the ‘what ifs’.
He is probably not a lot of what society will approve by ‘normal’ standards. Especially those who crave for materialism, power and comfort in life. But to me, he is a giant leap from normality and the many ex. bfs that I had. He is the perfect example of what I aspire to be! And I love him for that – to just live life the way he wants it.
xXxoOxOxxXo
Had an extremely lazy day today. Woke up at 9 ish (reluctantly) and slept through the Sound Of Music. Didn’t do much today as well except for the several hours of surfing and discovering how I can make independent travel more meaningful.
Although work has become very interesting nowadays (with more and more responsibilities that come out of no where everyday), I still can’t get my mind off seeing the world and volunteering in 3rd world countries. I’m done with life in my 20s on partying, indulging in materialistic purchases and earning the big bucks…
‘Someone’ please shed me some light!
Thank god it’s the weekend!! :D
Not that I had a bad week to begin with. On the contrary, I had a rather short week! Worked only from Monday till Wednesday and attended a 2 day workshop on Thursday and Friday.
Matter of fact, it was a GREAT week! Mr.boss sent me and another colleague to a Content Management System Masterclass. The workshop (trained by James Robertson of StepTwo Designs) brought my knowledge of content management system to the next level!
Well sure…I have a basic understanding of cms. Which involved user’s requirement gathering and writing project plan for a web cms. Pretty basic stuff I would say. Now that I know a hell lot more about cms, I feel totally ashamed of defining requirements that I thought was valid for the client.
This workshop was a total spot on. It couldn’t been a more appropriate timing than this as we are thinking of getting a cms for our website. It’s helped gain a better understanding of web cms, learned how to select the right cms, develop a web content strategy, define better business goals, vendor selection criteria, a little bit on usability and had a good laugh at real life tender that doesn’t make sense at all.
I can’t wait to put what I’ve learned into practise!
I fell in love with Potato Gnocchi @ Melting Pot (Concorde Hotel) today :D The white souce was deliciously cheesy with a pinch of saltiness and the potato was so springy it danced in the mouth.
I think God must’ve had an Italian Kitchen!
Have you got any regrets in your life? Things that you should have done/said but didn’t. Until it was all too late and there isn’t anymore second chance?
I don’t have much regrets in my life. Perhaps I have conditioned myself to trust that everything happened for a good reason to serve me. I am a believer and I refuse to believe that I am not worthy of good things in life. Period.
I think sometimes we all take things too seriously. And we always think a dead end is what we get if we do not follow the path that we ‘presumed’ has been set for us. But in life, there are so many path that we could take which will ultimately lead us to where we want to be. And people are often impatient which leads them to be blinded by momentary discomfort. By that I am not exactly implying that one should hang on to it even though the situation is not to their advantage. Just go with the flow and do what the heart desire. Most importantly have faith that (again) everything happened for a good reason.
Tomorrow is gonna be a difficult one. I’ve been asked by mr.boss to give a serious pep talk to the freshie who joined us 3 weeks ago. It’s obvious that everyone in the department had enough of his absence due to mc lah, wife sick lah, emergency leave lah, late attendance lah… I totally agree that we could not afford to waste time on such nonsense.
Personally, I felt cheated. Because I was the one who interviewed and recommended him to mr.boss. What happened to his commitment to me? That he will arrive on time for work, that he will work very hard and stay back if he has to? Oh trust me…I wanted to smack him when he went on EL on the first week!
I was a bit shock when mr.boss gave me this ‘assignment’. But come to think about it, we have given him enough benefit of the doubt. And trust me, I am not the type who will feel bad about letting someone go if they can’t perform. It’s not about being mean, it’s about being professional and a win-win for both party. Letting go does not necessary mean bad. It’s about giving the other party to realise his true potential elsewhere.
So anyway, I see what mr.boss is trying to do. And I appreciate him grooming me to become a good people manager. Boy it’s getting very exciting now at work! With all these new chapter on management!
Wah…today I saw a copy of The Secrets on my colleague’s desk…Looks like ‘EVERYONE’ is ready da book!
I saw something in a new perspective when I was reading The Secrets in MPH yesterday. I agree that thoughts always attract results. But what I didn’t realise was that some negative thoughts, repeatedly thought can yield ‘positive results’. (well in a way)
Now I understand why even though I keep having negative thoughts, it didn’t happen because I was in the same old cycle attracting the worrying thoughts. For example, I’ve shifted my shoe rack out of the apartment. I would be worrying about people stealing my shoes and by right I would attract a thief rite? But then if I keep worrying about it every day, then all I attract would be worrying thought about the shoe getting stolen and not attracting the thief. Get it?
Anyway, the correct thoughts would be picturing/visualizing seeing all my shoes when I get back from work :p
I always have this belief that whenever I need some answers, all I need to do is walk into a bookstore and the universe will reveal a book for me. So instead of hunting for a book, it’s very often that I am the one being hunted.
So I’ve heard about The Secret from celeste and my cousin. Especially my cousin. Who has been urging me to buy the book. When she told me it’s something similar to Power of your subconscious mind (by Joseph Murphy), I thought to myself….since it’s somewhat similar, then she must’ve mastered ‘the secrets’ from the universe, why another book?
Anyway, the hype finally got the better of me and out of pure curiosity, I started hunting for the book. No copies where found in Kinokuniya, Borders and Times. It sold out like hotcakes! But today, while window shopping in GE Mall, I saw it finally giving up playing hide and seek with me at MPH.
Now when it comes to books, it doesn’t matter if I have to give up several cups of Caremel Machiato. Books are something that I must have (no matter how expansive it is). The more the better! But just when I was about to grab the book and head to the cashier, I heard a little voice say…
“now wait a minute…do you ‘really’ need this book?”
Now that’s odd! I thought.
Then the voice came again.
“Do you really need this book or you just want to prove to lisa that you already know about the secret of the universe?”
And funny enough I find myself answering “Yes. I just want to prove a point so that she realise that she already know what she needed to know and all she need to do now is to start practising and stop harping on the next best seller like anyone else”. Opps!
Then…instead of taking the book to the cashier, I find a little corner and read through the pages, the entire book! Then I placed the book back onto the bookshelf and hope that it finds the person who needed it the most.
Now don’t get me wrong. The Secret is a good book. Lucky for some readers, it summarizes everything into one. I found traces of Andrew Matthew’s teaching about self love, Norman Vincent Peale’s teaching about believing and receiving all the good that life has to offer, Joseph Murphy’s insightful and powerful teaching about the sub conscious mind, and Miguel Ruiz’s gentle and compassionate teaching about the universe and mankind.
But, a book will just be a book if one doesn’t embrace and practise what’s been taught. At the end of the day, it would just end up being a ‘good read’ and nothing more. And one will never really discover the secret of the universe and how it could serve them.
Basically the secret to the universe is simple. It’s about believing that life can be abundant and everyone deserve the best in life (in every aspect). It’s about self love and believe that you can. It’s about having the courage to ask and most importantly receive what you asked for.
So there you have it – The Secreat of the universe.
Are you a believer yet?
Today started off with a slap on my forehead. How could I have mistakenly thought that Beginning Photography with Ron Yue © National Geographic Channel Asia is tomorrow?! Registration started at 9am and by the time I realised my boo, it was already close to 11am. Sigh, what a bummer…
Anyway, it’s was a great day nevertheless. Got my faulty dvd player replaced and saved RM500 from replacing the battery for my iBook. Don’t you just love it when you meet sales people who gives honest and professional advice? Instead of urging me to replace the battery, the Mac Evangelist told me that it’s not worth it because I wouldn’t know how long my 6 year old iBook is gonna survive. Usually the life span of a laptop is about 2-3 years because it starts giving problems. So she advice me to just hang on to it and had the charger plug in all the time. OK! Mac Evangelist, you earned your brownie points.
If I could be very honest with you and not care how bruise your ego would be (if you have one), this is what I will have to say to you.
Dear s.a.g (cc the m.d)
Today I had lunch with my boss and my colleague at Ciao. Very nice Italian restaurant that served 3-course set lunch, which includes a delectable array of appetizers from the buffet. Then my boss ‘just’ had to tell me the complains he received from your potential client (whom you went for a pitch) on you and everyone from your site of the table.
That, nearly ruin my appetite. (Hearing your name that it)
It was no surprise that I left the agency because of you. When I said I left ‘partly’ because of you, it was bullshit. But then I also realise that it was a blessing in disguise. Because the agency could never be a place to realise my true potential.
It’s probably not a good idea for you to know. Blame it on the m.d. He really shouldn’t have told you what I told and confided in him. It was very unprofessional of him. I felt as though he has betrayed me. But it’s alright I guess, because he never had my trust anyways.
I was ashamed with myself at first because I was made to believe that I had no control and gave up a “great career” for some silly personal reasons. But I just can’t take your crap anymore. It had come to a point where being near you gives me the negative vibes and hearing your voice irritate the hell out of me. I tried to understand your point of view and why you behaved the way you did with my department. I tried damn hard to ‘make peace’ with you to the point that I was even accused of being on your side. I tried whatever I knew best. But you and your blardy 3 year old sulks just fucking blew it. But I will not suck up to you because you are not worth sucking up to.
This is what your client has to say about you. And trust me, they will only say this behind your back and your reputation is going down hill *fast*.
- You don’t listen to what they have to say
- You don’t understand their business (because you don’t listen)
- You only do what you think its best creatively
- You are very grumpy
- You don’t respect clients (by throwing tantrums and being grumpy)
- You give them attitude
Mr. m.d, if your STILL don’t get it when it comes to managing your team in the organization and recognize the good from bad… you are in deep shit.
