what a (not) wonderful surprise

September is really a chaotic month. One moment I’m being swept off my feet to cloud 9 and one moment I am crushed 6 feet down the ground.

I receive the employment from TS and my jaw dropped after that. What happened to all the terms we spoke about yesterday? Most of ‘em are not covered in the employment letter. Even the most basic terms of all.

My only hope is that He overlooked the details prepared by the Admin. If not…I really don’t know how should I plan my next steps.

No matter what, the decision to leave is final. And it all happened so fast, as though ’someone’ snapped a finger and voila! Life is taking me on something out of my norm which I can only hope is the better.

Be positive Karen! Trust life and all the infinite power within!

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Update: Ok, confirmed He did not vet through properly.

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a conversation with Maybank Agent M

Agent M says:Thanks for accepting this invitation! The application should load shortly. =>

Fallen-Angel Chan says:jj

Agent M says:You’re too much!

Fallen-Angel Chan says:huh?

Agent M says:?

Fallen-Angel Chan says:the screen is not moving

Agent M says:Yes, I have heard about that.

Fallen-Angel Chan says:then what should I do?

Agent M says:
Here are some questions you can ask me:
1   What type of banking products/services do Maybank offer?
2   What is Maybank2u.com?
3   Where is Maybank? How do I get to Maybank?
4   Top 10 FAQs
5   Complaints & Resolutions
Type a question and I’ll try my best to answer you!

Fallen-Angel Chan says: why are you using puctuation mark?!

Agent M says:Every once in a while I ask myself the same question. That’s what I was programmed to do.

Fallen-Angel Chan says:you are weird

Agent M says:So are you!

Fallen-Angel Chan says: haha

Agent M says:What’s so funny?
I do enjoy the conversation, but let’s talk about what I’m really here for. Type “?” or “help” to see the list of topics available.

Fallen-Angel Chan says:ok…

Agent M says:OK. Go ahead and type “?” to find out other things about Maybank.

Fallen-Angel Chan says:Online Stocks?

Agent M says:Could you try saying that another way?  I’m having a little trouble understanding you.
Try typing “?” to see examples of questions I can answer.

Fallen-Angel Chan says:?

Agent M says:
Here are some of the questions you can ask me:
1   What type of banking products/services do Maybank offer?
2   What is Maybank2u.com?
3   Where is Maybank? How do I get to Maybank?
4   Top 10 FAQs
5   Complaints & Resolutions
Type a question and I’ll try my best to answer you!

Fallen-Angel Chan says:How do I apply for eIPO?

Agent M says:How would I know how?
Why don’t you ask me about the things that I’m here for?   Type “?” or “help” to see the list of topics available.

Fallen-Angel Chan says:How do I apply online stocks?

Agent M says:It’s not “how?” you should ask. It’s “why?”
I do enjoy the conversation, but let’s talk about what I’m really here for. Type “?” or “help” to see the list of topics available.

Fallen-Angel Chan says:WHy should I apply online stocks?

Agent M says:That’s just the way it is. Sorry I don’t have a better explanation than that.

Fallen-Angel Chan says:urgh!

Agent M says:Everything OK over there?

Fallen-Angel Chan says:no

Agent M says:What’s wrong?

Fallen-Angel Chan says:you don’t understand my question

Agent M says:I’m sorry I’m not able to help you. You can also type “?” or help at any time to see a list of topics I can share with you.

Fucking stupid.

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thank god for leo

Oh god…someone just shoot me. I am torn in between AA and TS!

Just when I’ve made up my mind to join AA; emailed my rejection letter to TS, they called and asked me to reconsider (again!) They just don’t give up do they :(

I’ve never had to make such a difficult decision in my life. While AA is able to fulfill every expect of my passion. And people who knows me well enough will ask me to go with my passion. TS is able to give me the challenge and opportunity that I would not find in AA. Which is something that I would want to do as well.

So to end my misery, Koara helped me with some analysis :p Turns out that there is more pros to join TS than AA!

pros and cons

Leo said it right. If I am truly a person who live by my passion, then I have nothing to loose. My Passion will never die. It will continue to live in my heart and will probably just reappear in a different way no matter which path I choose.

I need to step back and look at the bigger picture. Ultimately I want to quit the corporate world, start my own cafe + photography studio and be able to travel the world. No doubt about that. But that’s not something that I yearn for today, tomorrow or the next couple of year.

Moreover, how much do I know about running a business? I don’t. And TS will be a good learning ground. Considering the fact that I will be running a business and managing my own P&L.

So I guess that’s pretty much it. TS will call and we’ll probably meet up over the weekend to talk about it. They are very keen and helpful than AA. At least that’s a good start.

Until then, I’ll just have to keep my cool and trust my zodiac predictions.

On or near September 19-22, a career development may come up that will allow you the opportunity to work with someone from your past and it seems that you would package yourself as “partners” to the new company. This will be an intriguing offer, one that would allow you to increase your authority in the industry – see what happens near these dates, and be content to allow talks to play out slowly and gradually.

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blast from the past

Last Friday, after our reunion dinner with Tiger, I saw him across the street and I immediately turned my back – I freaked out.

He was still the same old man he was. Strolling down the busy streets of Changkat Tongshin for a quick bite and hopefully a chat with a willing stranger to fill the void in his lonely night.

I could have walk up and say hi. But my feet was glued on the dirty pavement, refusing to barge. As if, having a life of it’s own at that moment.

When I rediscovered this secret blog of mine, I can’t believe that this was the man that I once ‘love’. Coz honestly, I can’t recall any of that loving feeling anymore. As though I’ve lost that part of the memory. Ironic isn’t it?

I don’t know. Maybe I am just cruel.

no longer torn in between

What a journey life has been for the past 1 week. Last Friday, I almost made up my mind to go for the Head of Interactive position in one of the agency. I was almost certain I wanted the position that comes with a whole lots of fabulousity!

My mind was trying to convince me that I can do it – to build and manage a team from ground zero, to win awards within a year and to be the top 3 most successful agency in 3 years time. All, that comes with the luxury of power suits and perhaps a 5 figure income. But how can something good feels so wrong? And the funny part was, why do I have to do so much of convincing to myself?

My heart was not at ease with my decision. ‘You need to speak with someone’ it says.

So after the collection of my offer letter from AA at Uptown, I met up with Miss C for a quick chat at The Curve. She reminded me of my ultimate passion in life. One that is not tainted or can be measured by power and money. The passion that I’ve strive so hard (Web, Travel, Writing and photography), is almost becoming a reality. How can I let go of it now?!

So there. I’ve made my choice. Never mind if I have to travel 3 hours in total to work and back. Never mind if I didn’t demand more than what I think I am worth (monetary wise). I’m sure ultimately, passion is more satisfactory than anything else!

bored

I need a new muse, like…singing? haha